Surrender To Cherish by Sweetnida'author

Back again at the Backyard of My Thoughts'
from where I've learned to walk'
But couldn't walk away.
I tried everything made plans, Demanded certain way outs,
Wished a lot, Thoughts about Endless Desires,
Did Reincarnation on daily basis in My Heart,
I tried to make come True' but failed at Everything'
and then I Tried to Cut them out from My Heart,
I Possibly did that but that Effort 
some where took My Inner Self
Which Ultimately made me Terrible'
I utmost killed Myself.
I Forgot the Difference between Wishes and I
So then all happened which was Suppose to be,
I broke My Heart I Died in It.
Just because I can't be with the one I loved the Most
I can not Deny Myself.
I'm A Soul' A Body with Organs 
working in Proper Functional Orders'
Sickness attacked Me It became Worse'
I gave Myself Time to get Cured but somehow
 My Mental Health Got Effected.
I have always thought about alternates to keep on Going
If plan “A” did not worked' then plan “B” and “C” and So on'
But in order to be Accepted by Others
 I somehow Ended My Plans.
Which wasn't A big deal for others 
but for me It was Everything
I could Rely on to be Happy' actually Awfully Happy.
But I turned out to be 
Sad, Anxious and Worse version of Myself
Which I saw in My Mind and Denied hundreds of times.
And we can not be like others as for me I'm so different
My Perceptions are totally based on my Intuitions
Which cause Me Trouble but somehow They workout for me in a Right Manner.
Thinking over and over on same matter
Positive, Negative, Hell Pathetic'
And Everything Stayed in My Mind nothing Ended'
couldn't spell It the way It should be to be at Ease
Then I realised Finally'
Let's Surrender' not Ending but Leaving the Concern and
moving On with few Pen able words and A Cup of Tea'
I May Feel Good at Some Time
 but for now It's Ok to Feel Fine.
I'm not being Active in Writing Lately'
I might have lost My Passion or maybe Myself '
I hope it won't Lasts for Long.
If I'm living through A Certain way It could be Right or Wrong'
But No One is Allowed to Pass on Statements
They don't Owe Me.
Sometimes Pouring your Positivity to People
close to your heart with Empathy' could Drain your self
and then Negativity could Attack You'
You might gonna regret It later '
like wise Myself.
I'm Done at Creative Ideas
I don't know where I'm stuck
 or had Moved on But where exactly'
Guilt of Doings and Happening of Life
Again It's A sign of Complain' which leads to more Negativity
And with A Negative Mind 
You could never have A Positive Life.
Stop just' Stop right there.
Stand up, Walk against no matter about the Odds'
They are not gonna Lasts Forever'
Neither this world You are Surrounded by'
My thoughts are somehow 
Respected and Acceptable for Myself'
And I guess this is more then Enough.
Tomorrow will come with other Ideas 
And I'll be A different version of Myself.
Life have A Long way to Go It doesn't Ends here.
Carry Yourself Elegantly and Beautifully because
The day you won't Love Yourself you will realise'
You have never been Loved unconditionally.
Am I Done or yet all to come and Go'
We all belong to A Certain End
Everyone is Performing their part and Going away with It.
To where have You been Stuck Nida
Let's Just slightly take A Step Forward'
(Soul talks) It might be hard But Trust Me'
I have Got this only way for You.
"Surrender And Cherish"
Your Life could be More Fascinating
Then You could ever have Imagined.

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About Me (Nida)

~As I am finding Myself and writing in search of.... A year of freedom from a cage and now I m free for my whole life My name is Sweet Nida and I m writing My Experience, my Experiments, my Love, My Pain, my Sadness and I will write as my life is moving........!!!